2015 has been a very interesting chapter in my book of life. This year, God taught me a lot. I faced success, adversity, moments of strength and defeat. I was exposed to the glory of God by means of new life in the birth of my beautiful “niece” Isamae, and the promise of life after death in the loss of my grandma Bosie. And that was all before April.
Within the months following spring, I entered a very emotionally invested relationship and am proud to say when I became unhappy I did something about it. I lost myself the first half of the year. I lost my ambition. I lost my luster. But there is something about the breath of a new semester that kick-starts a second wind of motivation.
I planned and executed a very successful Homecoming with SIUE Campus Activities Board (CAB) and with the introduction of 55 beautiful, intelligent women coming into Alpha Phi, my determination to lead and thrive came back. I now serve as the Vice President of Campus Affairs for the Epsilon Xi chapter of Alpha Phi, and look forward to preparing to take on more leadership in CAB.
In November, turning 21 was a huge mile-marker and highlighted a big step in my life! I celebrated (and still celebrate) with some of the most meaningful people I could have ever been blessed to encounter. I also got my first college job at a place where my personality thrives and I am so proud to say that within this year I have steadily lost 30 pounds, having every intention to continue disciplining myself in the healthy lifestyle department. But the most important of all lessons learned this year, was that no matter what, forgive. And just because you forgive someone, does not mean you have to love them, it means you have to love yourself.
As I read the past few paragraphs checking for grammatical errors, I can’t help but think of a quote from one of my favorite rappers T.I.(no judgement required, thank you) “God will take you through hell, just to get you to Heaven.” I heard another quote a couple of weeks back and it has stuck with me too, “God does not have a plan B.”
How reassuring it is to be reminded that every valley I walk through helps establish the story and praise I can yell from on top of the mountain. Just this past week He put words on my heart for me to share with my friends who were having a rough day: how on Earth would we enjoy our happy and successful days as much if we didn’t have days of confusion and disappointment? Bad days are intentional, although not fun, but they are there for a reason. Just as bad weeks, months and even semesters are too. I learned to let go of the little things and I am the happiest I have been all year. I have actually become sort of financially responsible and I am making really great strides in that area of adult-ing.
I’m exiting this year as a completely different person than who I entered, in a very good way. I cannot wait to see how God uses me in 2016 and I hope that no matter what I go through I will keep my eyes fixed to the top of the mountain. I’m very grateful for every up and down that I tackled this year and could not have made it without the intangible gift of support from my best friends, family, awesome CAB Adviser and blessing of new friendships.
Cheers to new pages in the book of life.